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I post plenty of selfies and acrobatic type stuff but I realised I have not yet written about my “real job”

I thought I would share something I scribbled down a while back after a particular job.  I had to treat and transport a young man who had been stabbed; police had arrested him for his protection and the entire journey he was abusing me and screaming…


Title: I tried to help.

It’s ok I don’t actually blame you.
It’s ok I know you were scared and confused.
I’m sorry I couldn’t calm you down better.
I’m sorry it took half an hour before you trusted me enough to properly treat you.
You didn’t know your life was in danger.
You didn’t know it was for your own good.
I patched up your wounds and took away your pain.
I wiped away your tears for you because you were in handcuffs.
You eventually thanked me for treating you like a human.
You eventfully apologised for screaming and yelling.
When we got to hospital you wanted to tell me what happened.
When we got to hospital you panicked and started to become anxious.
I am sorry they had to sedate you.
I am sorry you felt small and alone.
You kept saying “you don’t care it’s just your job”
You kept screaming “I didn’t do anything wrong”
A victim but through confusion and circumstance made to feel like a criminal.
A young man but through a system half broken made to feel lost.
At your time of need I was there.
At your time of need I tried my best.
I returned later to see if you were ok.
I returned later but you had already gone.
We never did get a proper hello.
We never will get a proper goodbye.

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Relationship goals…
And also how I feel right now after working a 16 hour night shift… Who wants to carry me to a bar with sangria! Haha
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Relationship goals…
And also how I feel right now after working a 16 hour night shift… Who wants to carry me to a bar with sangria! Haha

#love #wine #instagay #cute #adorable #hot #hunk #couple #sweet #beautiful #style #swag #gayboy #gayguy #gayman #gay #homo #model #muscle #man #men #boy

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Despite my normal “external” display of confidence; deep down I still sometimes feel like the lonely little “faggot” made fun of for being different all through highschool… Thanks to my buddy Joey for being able to capture me with my guard down. Next...

Despite my normal “external” display of confidence; deep down I still sometimes feel like the lonely little “faggot” made fun of for being different all through highschool… Thanks to my buddy Joey for being able to capture me with my guard down. Next entry is up on tumblr (link on profile).

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